♥ Thursday, November 14, 2013
Today one of my friend who is not so close suddenly asked me am I alright. When I asked him why, he said I look sad… Hmm… I won't deny I am sad, but did it really show? My best friend said I don't look sad so I'm not sure. But thanks for your concern A, I really appreciate it ^^
But on the side note, it made me wonder do I look sad or whatever you may like to call it, but I can't seem to find anything about reading or telling if somebody is sad (unless you can read faces) :/ Just read up a bit of stuff and somehow it's telling me I'm showing depression symptoms :( Like all of em' except the I-wanna-commit-suicide symptom lol.
So maybe, just maybe, I am indeed depressed due to certain personal matters that happened and administrative stuff regarding next year's Summer Program at the main campus that is piling the weight on my shoulders. How I felt
abandon by a friend or two. so very stressed that projects, presentations and exams are never ending.
Let this all come to an end please.
Loves, pepper-san aka Leennn ♥
Just like seasons, people change.
Reminiscing @ 8:36 PM
♥ Sunday, November 10, 2013
Perhaps the last post for this blog, or I may start blogging again, I ain't sure.
Was a bit on and off with my mood and such, and lost quite a bit of weight. Haha nah not really, just 2~3kg lol. May I fight to lose 7kg in total :P
Mmm... I do think for quite a bit these days since it was nearing. Set my mind to block things out for a week now, no weeping, no feelings, no love. But somehow I teared for a bit now, so decided to come write out some stuff to make myself feel better lol.
On a sidenote... A bit of an eye candy on somebody; but perhaps its just to get my mind off stuff. But hey, le eye candy sat beside my usual seat cause his table was too packed with stuff that he said he was lazy to move them aside lol! But no leen, never the same mistake again... He was an eye candy in the past too. Still is, but some stuff changed the impression I guess... But the feelings are still there.
Am grateful for the number of people who realize things are amiss (even if you did not ask, but observed, kudos to you! You know who you are!). Really have to thank them for being there even though I may have abandoned you at some point of time... My sincere apologies. You guys (and girls) ain't mad but still, I'm sorry. Slap me if it ever happens again please :)
Loves, pepper-san aka Leennn ♥
It's sad how someone who means so much to you last year, can be a stranger now.
Labels: Reminiscence
Reminiscing @ 2:10 AM